Back to the good stuff :)

Well we waited , we planned , we prayed, we worked our butts off and in the end.......it was ALL worth it !!!!! The wedding day couldn't of gone any better !!!! It was the most fun I've ever had. And everyday since then has been even better. There is such a peace when you know you are with the one God made for you. Even the day of , everyone kept waiting for me to loose it and cry and not once did I cry....I smiled and laughed...enjoying every single second. It was the first time in my entire life that I put myself first. That may sound selfish to you but there isn't an event in my past that I put my enjoyment first. I"m always worried about everyone else...that my families are comfortable and getting along , that my friends are taken care of , that no one is fighting , etc.....while all of those things are good and kind things to consider.....I usually end up catering to everyone else and not enjoying the moment myself. Not this time...I focused on Matt and on the love that was all around us and nothing was going to bring that down. I know for a fact that were probably people that got upset or had an attitude about something but thanks to those that truly love me.... I didn't hear about anything lol .

This week is our first chance to settle into life. We had a week away in the Bahamas which was amazing then came home to the madness of Thanksgiving and me working a show at the Schuester. I'm excited to get back to a normal routine.

I woke up this afternoon ( yes don't judge, I needed sleep ) and finished reading a book by an author I love , Karen Kingsbury . Her books always encourage me in my walk with Christ. Something that I have been struggling with the last few years has been what I refer to as the " line of fire" ..... as a believer I know the choices I make have an impact not just on me but those around me. There is always right and wrong ...black and white.... I often think or justify my choices by wanting to be a light in the darkness but more often than not I end up not shining at all. I see it as trying to keep a foot on each side of things...straddling a line of fire...and thats not a comfortable spot to be in, or the right spot to be in.Its being lukewarm , its being a coward. I am praying that this new chapter in my life starts off by me standing on one side of the line....the side that honors the Lord. I'm encouraged knowing that I have a partner to walk this crazy life with , a man who also desires to follow the Lord . We are so blessed to have one another :)